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Dear Ranjan,

Here comes another annual post to you.

In managerial terms these annual blogposts are more of executive summary of the year. To me what it means is what I wanted to achieve in this year and what I did and I didn’t  or rather what is left to achieve and what is not worth chasing. On a sad note that makes it looks like that this blog is the epitaph of unfilled promises to myself, and celebration of imaginary pains in my life.

As I write this post I am reminded by some of my friend’s facebook status messages that a decade is about to get over. May be be looking at a longer horizon may make my feel better.

Without further ado for my own course tracking I am gonna structure this post in three distinct phases:

1. What I achieved this year

2. What could have been better(read What I didn’t)

3. Most importantly,  what needs to be done….what lies ahead

1. What did I achieve this year: So what did I achieve this year. NOTHING.. nothing that I wanted,nothing that I could be proud of …may be experience, but thats by default. Well that’s ultra-pessimistic view of looking life, materialistically I made some progresses. You can imagine how bad it must be that I have to tell things like these

(i) First thing was the killing that I made on my equity portfolio, stocks that were multi bagger. Numerically, it was 65% returns on my equity             investments over a 18 month year horizon. Things could have been better had reliance performed better but anyways.

(ii) I finally booked in a flat in GGN. Loan and all other things are yet to be worked out. Its a stretch on my current financials but I just liked the              features and in a spur of moment I had decided this is what I want. Rest all I will see.

(iii) After long I honed back my driving skills. Leave aside parking and back I can drive back again. OK there is a lot yet to be achieved yet I am               not hopelessly dependent upon the system.

(iv) Did a bit of reading this year, few books that I read this year

Fully: House of cards, On the Brink, Liar’s Poker, The Big Short, A brief   History of time, A Tiger for Malgudi, The Inheritance of Loss

Partially: The Black Swan, Security Analysis, Credit Risk Models and Basel Accords

These were coupled with many articles on this and that (oh my my  ….times are really bad that I have to put this for my reading, what’s next putting up the pdfs themselves?).Although I did n’t clear it but I studied for L2  too and man it was huge, more than1  sem syllabus. I feel slightly enriched but not accomplished because of these. Feels like it will take some more time to grasp things to be at the tip of my tongue. But anyways …”there is always a first time and there’s always a next time”.

 

2. What could have been better: Everything!!

1. 1. Academics: L2, sometimes I just wonder, what I could have done more humanly. A lot of times it’s not just u got hurt but how you got hurt matters  too, “but such is life”. The good thing is I dont have any other option to clear it. I will not give up and keep fighting, “no matter what, no    matter what”.
2. 2. Personal side, well many things could have been better, won”t tell anything, but yeah when I feel the promises I could not keep up with  myself  and my beloved ones then it really aches. Not sure if it’s medical heart ache or something else but yeah it does in real. When I look at what I have lost this year and come to grasp the full impact of that, I realize its too late..and the only  thing that i recall is the Iron Maiden song “You never miss till its gone away, and the heart is lying there” and all these things have taken away the feeling of narcissm.

1. 3. Work: The less said the better.

1. 4. What needs to be done: A LOT
   1. a. L2
   2. b. Need to finish the incomplete books mentioned above
   3. c. And a lot more

i. Hitchhiker’s guide to galaxy:July

ii. Alan Agresti:Aug, Sept

iii. Tuckmann:June, July

iv. GEM2:Cab Zindabad

1. d. On the personal side: I will try my best to be happy come what may. Things may not be the way we wanted them to be but I will use my illusion

No further sentiyaap and bs just work hard and have faith in God. There might be times when you dont get what you want, what you desperately want. The world might think you to be something someone else, but what matters is whether you did what you felt what was right or wrong, and if the answer is yes or I tried my best, then nothing else matters. One can stand against everyone else other than himself.

Rest all will keep you posted man.

Yours forever

Ranjan(WS)